Unfoldment

And in the steady walk of days
you might suddenly be able
to move more swiftly,
quickly slipping into
some embodiment of your self
you never had been sure
how you could get to

Life seems so routine, then suddenly.
Grasp this now, for who knows when?
If it’s not here yet, keep on walking.
Time doesn’t own you, so . . .

The engine of your heart’s desire
is always humming in the background,
purrs or lurches you along whether or not
you’re holding it in mind.
Time doesn’t own you, but it watches —
Your unfoldment is a good show.

©Wendy Mulhern
February 20, 2017

End of January

The raw wind is in from the sea,
the warmth of early (and surprising) sun
erased. The firs are in their element —
they dance in the cold moistness.
Cedars, too, take in this breath with relish —
it doesn’t matter
how long it is from now till spring —
long as bending boughs, as winter nights,
as this unnamed span of time and temperature
until our shoots break ground.

©Wendy Mulhern
January 29, 2017

Rebalancing

Someone called it a wolf moon.
I saw it mostly hidden,
a glow behind clouds,
the clouds moving like
cauldron bubbles,
the moon like something forming

I emerge silent,
not wanting to tell anyone anything,
at least not now,
wanting to listen
and not to teach.

These are the times of rebalancing,
coming back for the completeness
to embrace me tenderly,
showing me how.

©Wendy Mulhern
January 13, 2017

Release

These are the orbits
in which we try
to find our life,
the circling in,
the haphazard intersection
of some memory or dream
with what we’ve called reality,
the moments of freedom
and the hours of keeping watch,
the forced leisure
and the long waiting

This is a time which may seem long
but we’ll find a perspective
in which it was short.
We’ll find a way to move,
we’ll find a peace.
We don’t need the last good bye
to find release.

©Wendy Mulhern
January 8, 2017

These Days

We try to find momentum
on this ride that carries us
with glacial ponderosity
along a course in which we have
neither steerage nor vision —
just the slight sinking feeling
that we are moving. Maybe
at the speed of days, maybe slower

We look for grace
in the things that feed us —
smiles and conversation,
progress in our work,
the glow that comes from being kind

We will find a music for these times,
we will use it to fly
a few feet off the ground,
just enough to give us delight,
just enough to feel alive.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 30, 2016

Nearing Year’s End

The scent of orange oil on fingertips,
the complex progression of its taste
when breathed in, is like the moments
a year lays down — when I look back,
I see the way my thoughts
were all of a piece,
though they seemed different as they unrolled

I feel I traveled both farther and less far
in my progress through the year
than I could register
at the time

Now wind beats rain against the house,
staccato counterpoint
to the radio’s music
And the darkness at end of year
sits in puddles in the street
while we step through each unmeasured day
toward an undefined tomorrow.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 26. 2016

Old Photos

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I sit here in this winter afternoon
with time laid down in multiple exposures,
coming round to end of year,
softly tugged by nineteen-year-old photos

With carols on the stereo to knit the years together
and drafts around the windows to remind me of the weather
and nothing, really, that I need to do in here and now
except my heart’s deep preparation for eternity

Those friends, who were such sweetness in our lives back then
are gone from us, except in memory,
those little faces, and the strength of love they pulled in us —
they are still dearly loved, though not the same

And we approach a Christmas where we won’t see them
and we’ll put no decorations in the house
as we look for something often sought but found seldom
to fortify ourselves for time to come —
the perfect peace to bring this world safely through its changes,
to play our part in witnessing the birth of truth.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 15, 2016

The Long Traverse

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Regardless of our pushing,
we can’t go any faster
than the flow of things,
the time it takes the old man
to eat supper, the time
before he’s ready
to go to bed,
the time it takes for thoughts
to fully form,
the time it takes to leave

These are things that may be known
but not by us —
We are required to fill our days
with everything we can —
what we stand for, what we value,
what will move us forward
though we know not where

Surely at some time
we’ll crest the hill
and see the land before us.
We just can’t say when.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 1, 2016

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The Art of Home

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Rain outside,
Schubert within —
the old man taps his toes
as if in rapture
though I don’t know
what he really hears

We have a cozy place —
we’ve made it out of walls and paint
and music, heat, and light,
and presence and kindness

We are teaching ourselves
the art of home —
how to design the spaces,
how to build them,
how to provide
for all the flows we want to come through

We built this house
with hope and imagination.
Our young family emerged
and flowed through it,
filling some spaces, not using others
in the way we had imagined,
moving on, leaving behind
the cavities its movement carved,
the flotsam from its ebbing presence

We are teaching ourselves
what to take with us, what to let go,
how to make a house that fits how we live,
how to live so that our home
grows up around us in support.

©Wendy Mulhern
November 5, 2016

Home Again

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Sweet day
returning to waiting circles
laughter and affection
unpretentious talk with folks who understand

Easy sun
after the night’s rain,
watching waves,
thrilling to chords and colors

Relief of being in our own home
despite systems that are down.
We see a way forward
and that is good. We feel into
a way of being present,
and that is even better.

©Wendy Mulhern
October 23, 2016