For Now

trail

I have restrained myself
from noticing too often
how close this day lies
to the one last year,
how instant the return has been
to this place in the cycle

Fall to fall, time of fruition
to the last one, things accomplished,
things which, though they’ve gone through convolutions,
and many permutations,
seem uncannily the same

I try not to mention how surprised I am
how fast the moon wanes, then is full again,
or note the blip of weekends,
one quick tick after another —
like second hands, they sweep around

As for moments, they seem mostly full
and mostly singular. They don’t roll by
as rapidly as years. That’s why I try
to keep my focus here.

©Wendy Mulhern
November 13, 2014

Turn

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The coolness of the air
brings sudden autumn,
a memory as strong as taste
of longing, of excitement
for things that might unfold
as they are borne along the quickening
fall of the year into endings
or new beginnings

A taste of bracing challenges
and rising skill that meets them,
the ramping up of inner heat
to warm us through
the passage of the cold
and take us once again
around the turn.

©Wendy Mulhern
Sept 3, 2014

Accounts

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And to the dream, when you arise,
you’re not required to say goodbye . . .

What of these days
will I take with me?

I see this span of brightnesses,
their traces left in photographs,
the moments we were lucky
to have noticed —
More joy, perhaps, in pauses
than in efforts to do something
to make memories . . .

Time gets foreshortened,
changes, measured in height and hair,
grow less pronounced,
While timeless qualities, less noticed then,
shine forth

And everything is colored
in the way I feel right now —
few memories can hold their early hues

What of these days will I take with me
when my arc no longer intersects this sphere?
— Here’s all I know for sure:
The place I am will always be my here.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 7, 2014

Shifting

shifting

The day moves
in the contentment of rain,
and change that rolls through
like showers on the wind,
not unpredicted, still arresting
in the subtle fresh shifts
of clouds, of air
and shafts of sun

We stand here
in this singular moment
swift as rainfall,
and move on,
still present
as the landscape changes,
never the same again.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 3, 2014

Just before the turn

It’s not quite time
for the quiet click
that signals
the start up of a new cycle,
not quite where the whirrings
of the measuring machinery
propel the system on
past the pause at the top of the circle
into the subtle push
before momentum picks up
and sends the circle onward . . .
Not quite time,
but we can pause,
here as anywhere,
to let our breath catch up.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 31, 2013

Year’s End, 2013

There will be no falling, this time,
into the end of the year,
no tumbling of untallied days,
no cache of uncounted hours
to not expect, but then to have
for languid wandering through paths
of memory . . .

These days are still measured,
still ordered — needed for the steady
mounting for the launch,
in rising hope,
into the next ascent.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 29, 2013

There’s time

Don’t worry —
Time won’t go without you.
We are the time-makers —
we breathe time,
it moves at our fiat.

Every one of us
has the power to insist
that time unfold in order,
allowing space for each expression
to come to full fruition,
each impulse to bring forth
all the blessing that impelled it,
each symphonic movement 
to build,
in its proper sequence,
to the place of final satisfaction.
Life doesn’t go without you —
there’s time.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 2, 2013


Fall

Let me take a little time
to be dry,
dry as my mouth against this headwind,
dry as the crunchy leaves on the trail.
Let me take a turn
at the inward curl
that is done emoting
and waits to receive,
not needing to do so in any length of time,
not being watched for a reaction,
just breathing,
just feeling.
Grant me the abandon
to let myself fall.

©Wendy Mulhern
October 28, 2013


Monuments

We think we build for eternity,
Yet all those heavy, heady things —
documents of finances,
records of transactions and transitions —
become as useful as the old computers
that contain them,
decaying towers of plastic obsoleteness.

We think our lives are fleeting,
Yet those moments
like where a hug reached through
beyond the mask of separation,
and where you saw a soul
and felt illumined,
and how you worked together
in the quiet, deft companionship
of knowing what was needed and delivering —

These times, uncaptured by recording,
still remain,
undimmed monuments
to the heart of life.

©Wendy Mulhern
September 23, 2013


Fruition

This is a time of closing of the arc,
not as in a downward fall towards death,
climax past,
but as integrity of structure,
in which the strength is realized,
and all the flyaway, forgotten hopes
of many years
now have a place
to weave themselves back in,
to form a vessel
that can hold
all these sweet fruits.

©Wendy Mulhern
September 10, 2013