What We Are

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None of us are what I thought we were.
We are not bundles
of incremental striving for self betterment
with random heaps of cluttered failures
making for secret shame
and weighing down our efforts with inertia

We are not defined or saved
by one or two shining streams of virtue
which somehow breached the ruts
we thought of as ourselves

And we are not the patterns
we unconsciously lay down,
learned from our culture, over and over,
hiding our wounds and our power

What we are
in leaving all of this
is free,
what we are is glory,
what we are is here for us right now —
look how it rises up from the stillness,
look how it brings us home.

©Wendy Mulhern
October 21, 2016

Daily Bread

shoreline-rainbow

What is given to me this day?
To the untrained eye, my daily bread
may look like struggles,
fear and doubt and lack

But as I learn to see
I understand that what is given
is the abundant meeting
of every challenge —
the fortitude, the courage, inspiration,
creative power to bring forth anything,
whatever has been out of place or missing,
whatever is most needed for today.

©Wendy Mulhern
September 19, 2016

Submersion

Erica's swimming hole Aug 2016

The way my body feels —
like jumping with delight
into a cold river,
bright as the sun edge
on the still shining far bank,
mirthful as submersion
where the clean cold is most welcome,
happy and wobbly like trying to
balance on slippery shifting stones

My body feels giddy
before the momentous proposition
of immortality
and the goodness of everything
and the clear conviction
of being rescued
from a sad dream.

©Wendy Mulhern
August 28, 2016

Alignment

katama morning

After the tentative approaches
we slip into comfort
sleek as magnets
finding their close alignment

From here on it’s easy
to enter our connection,
easy to feel how our colors
have blended together,
easy to notice other touch points
of our proximity

The city, of course, is spiritual,
the I Am in which we always dwell,
which holds us in perpetual peace,
receptive vessels of constant blessing

We meet each other here
because it is the only place
where we can really touch each other,
the only place
where we can truly be ourselves,
the only place where our embrace
is ordained,
ultimately, the only place we live

We slip into a comfort
that regenerates
and fortifies us
for the work at hand,
we walk forth
never leaving the holy city,
so we bless the land.

©Wendy Mulhern
August 14, 2016

Cerulean

cerulean with bird

I am reminded
to let go of all trying,
efforts on my part,
after all, amounting
to nothing more
than obfuscation

Today, as ever,
some swift patch of blue
fills my vision with the wideness
of effortless being,
the infinite home of cleaving
to omnipresent allness

(Even as my pack rat mind
scurries around, trying to package it
into a Lesson, a plan, a resolution)

Still, the brightness gleams
in so many places,
I can be reminded
again and again.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 11, 2016

Waves

Richmond Beach waves

I watched the waves come in steady —
for each three breaking, three more would appear.
At every moment, some were ending,
some were forming,
some would break and some just disappeared

I thought of life, of opportunities
as if each were a wave, as if I had to choose,
as if some waves would bring me
the fulfillment that I hoped for,
while other choices might well disappoint

and then I watched the light across the water,
the brightness of the blues, the constancy
of all the pattern, and I knew
what comes into my life is not beholden
on luck or on the choices that I make

Just as all this sea
is given to my eyes, and all this beach,
so all my days are given me, and all their joy —
There are no misses, no crestfallen choices.
The one who gives me life
has promised goodness, too,
and gives it constantly
throughout my days.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 9, 2016

Offering

Shoreline sky

I will bow down
in order to take off,
I will dip into the slip stream,
I will rise swiftly, pulled up
by the climbing current

Each day, to do this, I will sacrifice:
I will give up my fear.
I will slip it off my neck, over my head,
I will lay it down. Thus unburdened,
I will be ready for the updraft,
when it comes. I will stretch my arms wide
to take it in, to revel in the sheer expansiveness
of flight

I will remember:
humility is light and pliant —
it is no pain to carry,
it is so much better
than all those splintered beams,
those sharp shards,
those things I used before
to try to build myself

I bow my head
to receive this blessing,
I serve this truth
in order to be free.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 5, 2016

Today’s Metaphysics

lower pasture, spring morning

That which is everywhere
can’t be pushed around,
can’t be forced, can’t be withheld,
can’t be transferred, transmitted or dispensed

That which is everything
can’t be squeezed, or thinned out,
or distorted, can’t be deficient,
can’t be subjugated

That which we are
must exist in the context
of what is everywhere and everything,
forever whole, forever shining bright,
immutable and sovereign as light.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 22, 2016

Behold the fowls of the air

front pasture grasses

Let me fly
in the rich provision for my being,
let me take no thought
for what will hold me,
what will glide me
along the subtle billows of the day,
what will deliver me
glowing and fulfilled
into the calm of evening

Let me take no thought
but let me know it fully,
let my gratitude warble
in a voice much larger than my form
across the land.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 16, 2016

Bread of Life

Green Lake birches

Oh — taste this:
The bread of life
is not a metaphor —

What really sustains us
is not metabolism,
and what we’re made of
really is the one thing,
the flavors of which
are joy, exhilaration, love

What sustains us in our being
is kindness, and seeing others true,
and gladness to be here,
to be the light of life.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 10, 2016