The Allness

I can’t paint
the allness of being
on a canvas supplied
by the framers
of the big lie,
Can’t depict
the grandness of good
with the paltry palette
of commercial symbols,
Can’t comprehend freedom
in the confines
of the box of fear.
I need to quiet down
and let the chatter clear

My heart, on its own
will always move toward truth —
It will sink down to it
with the certainty of water
and spread out to it
in the steady drift of clouds,
It will rise to it
as heat moves ever out to warm the cold
and it will settle
in the solid pumping presence
that it always holds

And there, beyond the clamor
of the last condemning voice,
I will meet the Allness
and rejoice.

©Wendy Mulhern
March 7, 2014

Cloudscape

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You start to wander
down the corridors
the scene shifts
before you get to ponder
how your thought drifts
how you start to wonder
what can lift you
from the tilting under
till you stop.

Those arguments
can roll past your head like clouds
and contract and expand
but they won’t touch you
and they can’t move anyone you love
and whatever shadows
they may cast across you
will move past
and be gone

You have been here
longer than your doubt
and you’ll endure
longer than the drama
where it twists
and tears you for a moment
and comes out.

©Wendy Mulhern
March 4, 2014

Who You Are

snow sky

So many teachings
tell you what you are
and you say yeah,
that’s nice,
but how will it help me
through all these weighty duties,
all the dread annoyances
of every day?

What does it take
to make them make a difference?
— One experience of filling up
with all the joy of it —
A joy so wide,
your former view
of who you are
can’t hold it,
can’t hold the great
suddenly unfurling
You,
grand enough to encompass
all that goodness,
bright enough to light up
the whole sky.

©Wendy Mulhern
March 1, 2014

Flash

temple

I want what I want.
My desire is my own.

No one can make me not want
what I want,
No one can make me
want what I don’t.

A simple truth,
a spinning shape,
flashing peach-toned light
through my center
outwards
What does it mean?
Joy and power

I want what I want:
it is not moderated,
not bargained down
or capitulated,
with no apology,
no wrong, no shame,
clear as my conscience,
strong as my name.

©Wendy Mulhern
February 23, 2014

To Sunny

No, please —
(as I see you from afar,
drifting down the currents
of someone’s strenuous persuasion)
Remember what you had —
Remember how we both
filled with that so-tangible light,
heart-homed, rising more massively
than magma,
shining through our eyes,
making that visiting booth a lantern
that poured its brightness into all my life.

I know I always went away euphoric,
my joy so well fed,
my faith so anchored
by your stand for truth.
How can you forget?
How can you leave that light
for cold logic, dry texts,
and an old excluding story?

Come back —
(I ask you, knowing
I have no traction
except the hope we planted together
which has spread into a great field
in the time you’ve been gone.)

©Wendy Mulhern
January 11, 2014

Nexus

At any moment,
you can be
the spark point of divinity,
the nexus of reflection,
the place where the God light
touches down
between you and another.

You can be willing,
which makes you
a tuner, an amplifier
for the ever present music
that stirs your inner infinity
and brings it up —
an offering
that unites you both in blessing
and carries your sudden comprehension
down the bright living stream of life.

©Wendy Mulhern
January 6, 2014

Trusted

We will ride home
across golden meadows,
the gracious sun glowing at our coming,
our shadows stretching royal
along the welcome road;
We will ride home
supported by the very air,
caressed by the attending breeze.

We have done well,
as was decreed at our creating;
we have been
exactly as we were intended.
This fulfillment
comes from something higher
than our forms can comprehend,
this victory
our creator’s gift to us
of the particulars
of our design

We will ride home
as was written and is now enacted,
in the rich ease of being trusted.

©Wendy Mulhern
January 2, 2014

Arguing the Case

I need not plead for you
in the court of nightmares,
masking with bravado
a trembling sense
of being at the mercy of its sentences,
implacable, arbitrary, cruel.

I’ll take your case
to the light of day
where all those looming shadows
are revealed as two-dimensional —
lying flat along the ground
and bending with the walls,
insubstantial, fleeting as the hours —

For you were never subject
to the tales of failure,
never marred by the projections
of a bad light.
You have always stood empowered
in the grandeur of the genius
that ever brings you forth
intact, upright.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 5, 2013


Transfiguration

It is good for us to be here,
and whatever we have brought —
our child fears, our defenses,
our adult masks, our opinions,
the scaffolding on which we’ve propped
our wobbly sense of worth —

Whatever we have brought
can sit here in this light
of what we’ve glimpsed within each other.
It can sit in that warmth,
bask in the slowly suffusing fact
that it’s forgiven. All of it.
We will fill with light till that’s all
we can see in each other,
and we will be whole.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 4, 2013


True Testimony

I will not argue
against myself anymore.
I will not deny
my power or my desire,
I will not take the side
of death, decline, fatigue.

I am alive,
and Life’s essence
is the one thing I must manifest
in the being of myself —
I must always move as Life moves —
growing, sheltering, blooming,
attracting, rejoicing, communing.

I separate myself
from the internal voices
that try to make me think
I desire inertia.
I am of Life,
and Life supports my being
what it is, what I am.

©Wendy Mulhern
November 25, 2013