The Plight of the Middle-Aged White American Middle Class

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Oh, we have been
folded in and folded in,
our ignorance inculcated
through twists and turns
and suffering, and the one
apparent truth, that we are
not yet happy

We have done all the right things
and still it eludes us. We
have our good days
where we’re turned in such a way
that we don’t see the black wall looming;
We have our seminars and chants
to protect us from what we see
out of the corners of our eyes

We can’t be called complicit
if we haven’t seen the system,
can’t be called complicit
when we’re impoverished.
Yet when we see the role
we have been made to play,
It’s time for us
to find a way to stop.

Yes, we’ve all been victims,
no less we, who’ve ridden on the backs of slaves,
whip in hand, all our lives,
We who wondered where the ache was coming from —
a pain we couldn’t locate for its distance,
We who now watch our kids walk aimless,
having come to the end of the road we
(innocently) sent them down

So now, if we have any power at all,
the one thing we can do with it is turn —
turn away from our sugar-drugged,
glamour-brainwashed,
fear inflicted stupor
and find a way to live.

©Wendy Mulhern
March 17, 2015

The Halftime Show

How dearly did you pay
for this chance
to be the moth that burned —
everyone watching. gape-mouthed,
your breathless splendor —
many wishing they could be so graced,
not knowing
you were passing
so very quickly
from flame to fluttering ash,
swept away to the oblivion
of all who let themselves be mouthpiece
for the machine.

©Wendy Mulhern
February 1, 2015

Days Like This

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Days like this, I feel
No one will be left behind.
We’ll all do this together
(astonishing as that may seem
when we appear so atomized,
so caught up in the stream of
everything we never wanted)

We’ll all do this together,
each impelled to take the daring leap alone —
We’ll jump up in unison
and look around
in gratitude and surprise
to see that no one is left behind
in the great claiming
of everything we’re called upon to be.

©Wendy Mulhern
January 28, 2015

Waiting for Service at the Verizon Store

The wind tunnel here is strong —
shrill blasts along the sheer and sterile buildings,
loud streaming of the ads and football chatter,
straight lines of life-suppressing roads
and matching suppositions of acceptable life-paths —
It’s no surprise we all should feel
weary, aimless, craving sugar

In this place I summon
everything alive
to help me —
the brave trees at the edges of the parking lot,
the smiles that people sometimes find,
the memory of winter reds against the gold
of winter grass
on the wise land
where we will learn to reconstruct the patterns
which show us how to live,
which give us peace.

©Wendy Mulhern
January 11, 2015

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Biding

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Faced with a riptide
or a vortex
Be calm —
There’s less to gain by thrashing
than by tuning in
and waiting for your moment

It’s OK
if you go down a little more
before you surface

There will be something you can use —
An eddy, or a bottom to spring up from
Or a gravitas within,
more weighty than
the surge can heave,
to separate you from the fray,
release you from its inundating force,
let you reclaim your footing
and your course.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 23, 2014

Forward

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There may be times to look back
but this is not one of them —
Not now, when the dissolving floes
are drifting,
breaking up the paths
we used to walk on

Not now, when our only hope
is in how solidly we place this step,
right here. And how attuned we are
to those deep harmonies
along whose lines
reality solidifies

This is the time to create the ways
for those who have been lost to follow,
and for all those coming up
with hope as yet unsullied
to have our boughs to twine on

In this way, we’ll weave a world
we all can stand on
and look around
in any way we want.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 18, 2014

Wasteland

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We could live all our lives
in suburban toyland
with no discomfort,
with our pretend jobs,
with tools that are not dangerous,
that sort of work

We could tell ourselves
there’s no reason for
that reckless longing
that keeps rising up —

We could beat it back
through shopping,
live all our lives that way
But they would be short —
We’d die of shallowness,
of not being able
to get a deep breath

We’d die of feeling no danger,
no aliveness
We’d die because fear
would come and get us anyway
in our little holes
because fear is never conquered
by running from it

We can’t live all our lives
in suburban wasteland.
Wilderness calls us
and from deep in our throats,
deep in our guts,
we answer.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 17, 2014

Current Events

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I tear myself away from the pictures
so many times a day,
sickening and sad,
grief hanging with the edge of rain
on my windshield,
on the ledge behind my eyes —
Where can we turn now,
How did we drift so close to checkmate?

I look for solace in the colors —
winter reds of shrubs against storm gray,
dark trees against the sky,
I look for comfort
in the words of friends

These send me where I need to go,
down to the depths of my roots
to find the place where life
is ever coiling
to rise in its own strength,
to claim its truth.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 10, 2014

Rome Falling

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How does it feel
to be Rome falling?
— This is something
we can now know

Might have the same urgency
as how we cast our hopes
on what we pray will float
free of the massive
crumbling sham
that called itself
our great society

It’s strange how short a time we’ve known,
It’s strange how obvious it seems —
The utter emptiness of
all we’re told to strive for,
The spirit-hunger in our dreams

Rome falls
and there is much it takes with it
in the roaring vacuum it sucks down,
But if we hold each other
and hold what’s true
we will emerge
ready to begin again,
tender, new.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 7, 2014

Life Raft

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Wake up. Wake up,
but do it carefully —
for where, within your dream
you thought you were on solid ground,
you’re not. The place we are
is sort of like a life raft,
one that depends on you,
and all of us, to keep the balance.

We need each other,
and if you call someone an enemy,
that image, in your thought,
is like a hole. From which
the air that floats us
can seep out.

We all need
to keep our minds free
from those leaks. And we need
to learn to move
in concert with each other
so we can guide our craft safely
though the sea may try to swamp us,
hold together through the storm
and reach the shore.

©Wendy Mulhern
December 4, 2014