Right

hammering

I’m finished with voices
telling me to do it right

I’m finished especially with
voices telling me not to do it
because I can’t do it right
right off the bat,
such that I am left
helpless and immobilized,
waiting for someone else
to do it for me
or teach me
to do it right

For I have discovered
that if I just begin,
my action and attention
will teach me very quickly
not a rule for rightness
but the motion and awareness
that works perfectly
for right now.

©Wendy Mulhern
September 10, 2015

photo by Edward Mulhern

Evil’s End

The veil has been rent —
the illusion that plagued us
is gone, like the face of a burst balloon,
and even the reflexive repugnance
that trickled bitter down our throats
has disappeared

So we are no longer willing to accept
wheels ever-spinning in mud,
and the dragon no longer gets to
sweep away a third of the stars
from heaven

All the things we were struggling for
are lost from view —
we see the remaining distorted image
now two-dimensional
on the scrap of discarded balloon
And day rises, dew jeweled,
before our grateful eyes.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 6, 2015

The Enemy

enemy

It does no good
to lock your doors
and man your fort
when the enemy
has made itself
your trusted confidant,
sits there behind your ear
accusing,
criticizing everything,
infusing all your thoughts
with the putrid stain of rot
which you may mask with sadness
or with anger,
from which you seek escape
with sleep, with drugs, with pain

Fear not,
for what destroys the enemy
works even here:
The truth of your unstained and perfect love
which flows out from your essence, strong and pure,
will wash away the lie and all its voices
within you and outside,
and you’ll see clear.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 26, 2015

So many people

hidden light

So many people go through life
without ever having written a symphony,
without ever doing a cartwheel,
without ever knowing what it feels like
to be free

So many people (or so it’s said)
have never known true love,
have never felt the exaltation
of the egoless willingness
to be a blessing
and having that fulfilled

People go through life
buying expectations for themselves
from the shelves of sanctioned social options,
wearing them, though they don’t fit,
eating them, though they don’t nourish,
hardly noticing the pressure of the light within
as it attempts to free itself and shine

But by and by
the light will win,
spill out of some chink,
overwhelm them
as it bursts forth
revealing all the vastness of their being
where they don’t go through life —
they really live.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 14, 2014

Escape

We are marvelous creatures
and our instincts are unerring —
See how we fall like water,
see how we follow the veins of continuity
that still flow through the rubble
of our chopped up lives

See how we leave the lies
that said these broken stones
were natural, that the meaning
of our lives is to collect them,
pile them together
in some kind of race
to be someone with a complete structure

We sink beneath the stones,
We find what flows,
We find what holds together,
We find the land
So we escape to find ourselves
no longer partial,
no longer fractured, disconnected,
no longer severed from ourselves —
So we stretch out in how we know
that we are whole.

©Wendy Mulhern

May 1, 2015

Heaviness

whidbey beach driftwood

Ah, what have you shouldered?
— Put it down —
What have you swallowed?
— Spit it out —

At this time of heaviness,
in this time of lies,
In the face of revolution
or worse, suffocation
The one thing that is needed
is not for you to go down
(though the depths cry out, cry out,
though something calling itself conscience
demands your howling)

The one thing that is needed
is for you to demonstrate
(if only to yourself)
the survival move of shrugging off the weight
and letting the afflatus
bear you to the surface,
letting the stillness
radiate,
letting your truth
rise.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 28, 2015

Enemies

twin ponds shadow

We looked around for the enemy
but all we could see
were faces wanting to be loved —
some with glints of longing,
some with aching hope,
some afraid to even
look up and see

No one was standing
with bared teeth
waiting to devour
or in the inscrutable ice
that blandly wields a pen
to steal the lives of millions

Instead we saw the power
that kindles kinship from afar,
that brings each one back
from dim benighted stances

We saw the incredulous
but then willing
dropping of forms,
of roles, of strictures —
we saw the relief,
grateful and repentant
of coming home.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 25, 2015

Walking to the Jail

grass and sidewalk

My soft-shod feet
fall quietly
along the pavement,
then the gravel, then the curb I balance on

A metal door rolls open to admit
a young athletic cyclist
into a dark spire of glass and steel
that makes its statement
between the water and the freeway
shadowing the scruffy grasses
where homeless people pitch their tents

I walk along the edges of the city,
don’t see many people, though the land
is all but absent underneath the influence

I walk along the edges of the system, too —
not caught up in the hum of jobs and money,
not forced to be here, not incarcerated,
not forced either, to buy in
to all the ways that I could be constricted

I feel a watchfulness around my eyes
but not much commentary. A phrase
flits through my thought:
“so many different flavors of slavery”
but I don’t pursue it

There’s a way I walk through here
where I see something else —
the power inherent in each set of eyes
to melt away all kinds of walls
through the simple and singular truth
of I Am.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 21, 2015

Clarion

evening mist

Only so much time
can be spent in shock
though waves and afterwaves
of revelation
keep sending their tremors
roiling and insistent
throughout the startled landscape
of my consciousness

Only so much time
can be given
to parsing out the network
of the old lies —
how they snared us
is far less relevant
that what we need to do
and how we can,
and how we follow the imperative
to rise.

©Wendy Mulhern
March 29, 2015

Stealing Away

mossy trees

We are stealing away,
feeling the need to be quiet
lest our escape, somehow, be arrested

We are not talking about
the wasteland we are walking out of,
not yet. Not till we are safe
on the other side

We have seen many things —
Things that were not hidden, really,
but we just couldn’t see them
without a reference point

Now that those points
have come into focus
we are going, as fast as we can,

Less fleeing than walking rapidly
towards our destination,
to that safe haven
where we can be real.

©Wendy Mulhern
March 21, 2015