The worth of a life

What is the worth of a life?
Is there a metric for this?
Consider the sun on the water
The sparkling path
which always presents itself
right where you are:
Each sparkle is for you—
the meeting of light with your eyes—
Though others see sparkles too,
they aren’t the same ones that you view.

What is the worth of a life?
As if you could separate 
One life from all others—
From the sun’s sparkles, isolate one
Take it away from the sun . . .
What is the worth of a life?
There is no measure for this
No way the question can make any sense
It’s worth everything that there is.


©Wendy Mulhern
February 23, 2012

(background music: William Ackerman, “Anne’s Song”

Soul Retrieval



No, no,
This is not the promise you were given
Mountains of detritus,
Self-enforced confinement
Stress and tracks of weary years
Across your face

No
This is not your course
The clock-enforced conformity
The envious and jealous stabs within
Reflexive judgement,
Passing down the curse
Of being conquered

However much the rules you’re taught
claim to control
You never could be severed
from your soul

Hold with me now
Together, let’s sing your song
It leads you back along the lines of longing
To where you’ve always sensed that you belong
We’ll all converge there jubilantly thronging
At home as if we never had been gone

Let our eyes now feed each other’s embers
Resurrect our light so we remember
What had seemed so lost from us, so far
Who we’ve ever been
And who we are.


©Wendy Mulhern
February 14, 2012


(background music: Max Richter, “Embers”)

Dancing free

There are natural ways
for things of different type to separate
The wheat from chaff with weight and agitation
The silver melting free in fervent heat

What then releases our presuppositions
that hold us stiff and stressed and isolated?
What focuses our sense of truth conditions
that home us to the joy for which we’ve waited?

A centrifuge, a tone, an ionizer
The kindled heat between caressing hands
A touch of grace that leaves us kinder, wiser
A place we feel we have the right to stand
The light that sparks and rises from connection
Illuminates our timeless, deep perfection.

©Wendy Mulhern
February 13, 2012


Romance

I took a cautious step
beyond the edge
I didn’t fall
I took another, checked my feet
They still stood strong
I jumped, I leaped
and next I’ll fly
For nothing is forbidden anymore

I made a world
I made it in my mind
I gave the sky a magic, stained glass blue
I used high clouds to mark its great expanse
I made a window into it for you
If you will join me
we can let our feet
be coated in the sun-warmed sand
and climb the driftwood, where it leans
above the rising tides
and revel in life’s interlocking, overlapping swirls
the waves, the wood, the sky
the shifting windows into worlds . . . 
I won’t believe a voice that says
my life course is constrained
To me belongs my mind
and all the pathways it contains.


©Wendy Mulhern
January 1, 2012



Dowsing

I.
Hands high, palms 
facing outwards, head back
An attitude of seeking
Hoping for a jolt of
some kind of spirit
some kind of truth
(or that which wafts in
on cellos’ orchestrated chords
that tug across you
swaying you inside
lifting your essence in supplication)
You wait.

II.
In the soul’s-mirth dawn
where melody has traced
a path that wandered
till the whole song was covered
and the rising chords suffuse the background
(rose and orange and magenta)
You shake off
the benightedness of night—
its last remaining muddles
dispersing like water drops
now bright with sun
Already so immersed in Spirit
you don’t even need to dive.


©Wendy Mulhern
December 14, 2011



Storms

When waves crash
Let me be a deeply rooted rock
Integral to the earth itself
Solid down to the heat
Where magma stirs my feet
With primal warmth
To which I can retreat
Far from the cold and violent froth
And water pooling
Running down and down
Removing from my face
With its persistence
Microcosmic grains to join the sand.
Let my deep heart rise unmoved
To meet the water
Patient, calmly waiting
For this barrage of waves to pass
For sun’s return
As all the moving, living things
Open their small mouths
Receiving what they need
In their right time
At wave’s crash
Or in quiet pooling
Or in pale star shine.


©Wendy Mulhern
October 30, 2011



in the valley of bones*

in the history of each half-lived life
so many bones
so many broken things
abandoned promises, buried dreams
sunken hopes with all their limp and dangling tendrils

(this is what I was going to be
this is what I meant to create
this was the early childhood promise
that was blighted by some careless, heavy hand)

fear not
each of these gets to rise
each one gets to join with others
as was intended, as was designed
to form a perfect arc
through which can pulse
the light of life
illumine everything
redeem each fallen chance

son of man, can these bones live?
can the mighty wind of oneness
unite their spirit again?
look
look and see
the rise of even that
one small tendril
is your proof.

*Ezekiel 37


©Wendy Mulhern
October 21, 2011



Two for Japan

My life walks on with its normal considerations, and I grumble inwardly about the weather (windy, rainy, raw) and the time change, while in Japan everything has been turned upside down.  What about the tsunami?  What about that which stops everything?  Attention turns from Libya to Japan, though the fierce dramas unfolding in Libya and Bahrain continue.  As does the sniping in Afghanistan, and the myriad struggles in Africa.  I guess I have no choice but to live my own life, where I am.  And, as long as it’s not disturbed, proceed as normal.  Homework, life aspirations, weddings in the family . . . 
But here are two for Japan:
I.
Just a trifled shuffling of the earth
and all that seemed established came unmoored
swept and tossed and flowing, falling downward
in a moment wasted, mired and marred
plans and dreams, like cars and houses carried
creaking, from the hopes that held them fast
a stark today; tomorrow has been buried
left in the jumbled rubble of the past.
Of death and what it means – who can say
if they’re set free, or face horrendous trials
but the survivors – what they face – oh let us pray
for healing for their decimated isles
and let us pause in silence for their sorrow
what came to them may come to us tomorrow.
II.
Here and now, the only truth is goodness
whatever has been spewed and spilled and tumbled
Here and now, the quiet space of promise
of character that rises from the rubble
Here and now, hands reach out in compassion
People stop, rethink their frenzied paths
Hearts are inundated with emotion
and grasp the anchored love that holds them fast
“We will rebuild,” they say, “and stronger, better.”
“It’s what we’re here to do, and so we must.”
We see the triumph of determination
the solid impulse where they place their trust
We never wish such sharp calls to survive
but here and now, this people is alive.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 15, 2011



Saturday Afternoon, at the Laughing Ladies Cafe


In our quiet corner of the world
The snow comes down, the furnace clicks
The wheels of commerce hum and purr
Folks with laptops smile and think and type
Espresso maker whines and thrums
Across the world, a short mouse click away
The streets are full, in history’s heady making
The breathless edge of life sharpens the day
As destiny hangs low, ripe for the taking
We sip our mochas, read the news
Do homework, glance out at each other
Confront our daily challenges, pace through duties
Instruct our children, check in on our friends
Buy gasoline, keep warm, wait for spring
Across the world, powers make their play
Wills pull taut, old expectations breaking
How dare they ask? – How could they not?  Today
In rippled flows like childbirth, youth is waking.


©Wendy Mulhern
February 26, 2011



Songs vs. Poems

For me the difference between a song and a poem is simple: a song comes with a melody, a poem doesn’t.  I’ve never written a poem and then set it to music.  I’ve started to put some of my songs here, without the tunes, which is a little like posting blind, as I always hear the music when I write or think them, and don’t know what they sound like without music.
The tunes haven’t gone far beyond my own head.  My brother Geoff took to singing one of my songs, so it has a music life.  My other songs remain trapped, due to my aborted music training, my lack of drive to pursue it, and my lack of courage to perform.  Plus if they were going to be performed, they’d probably have to be altered to fit the format of popular songs.
Sometimes songs don’t come whole, as did Vineyard Haven Kite Song.  Sometimes a first line, with its melody, calls for another.  In those cases I have enjoyed playing with the words, the rhymes.  In the following song, I enjoyed making not just end rhymes but internal rhymes, with some lines nearly completely rhyming with each other.  
That mid-college period of my life was a prolific time for songs – I don’t know why.  I shared some of them again with my brother Geoff recently, and he said they were probably not songs he would sing, as they bore that unmistakable stamp of college age sensitivities.  He may be right.  What do you think?
In the gentle wind a leaf flutters
And my stirring heart utters echoes
Murmurings of fear are forgotten
As the joyful rhythm beckons
Come, let us dance, oh let us sing, let us be merry
Some are set on chance but we on things less arbitrary
I could shout and still keep a secret
It would speak to him that would hear it
This I send my song out to seek for
Someone who has sung with its spirit
Let it be known – the word is clear, it has been spoken
What is coming must appear – its truth cannot be broken.




©Wendy Mulhern
Fall 1978