Before the Rain

I sit on the cabin porch
and wait for the rain,
listening to thunder
and the rattle of the neighbor’s tractor
as he tries to get his grass mowed in time.
The wind comes up, the daisies and the firs
send message —
I can smell it, I will see it soon

A doe is nonchalantly
grazing in the meadow,
little birds are quiet
while trucks keep rolling home,
and the rain is here
fresh and rhythmic on the roof,
the place we are suddenly grows small
but we are dry
and there is room enough.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 27, 2019

Mice

Mice tease out the seeds
from grass heads, and they weave
the soft chaff into bedding

(I know because
when we moved lumber
we found a stash)

I don’t know if they camp
or homestead. I don’t know
if we uprooted them
or if they were long gone

I know they have busy hands
and keen noses, and they seek heat
and water, and soft fiber,
and they get around.
I know they can live without us
but I think they would rather not.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 26, 2019

A kind of lostness

There was nothing substantial
to make a poem with
in that squid-inky mass of emotions
that squished around on the currents
of deep sighs, and a breeze
a little too cold to fall asleep in,
a state that could pass
like the swing of a hammock
or an adjacent snore
of exhaustion, late in the afternoon
of a day so unabashedly brilliant
that no kind of lostness
made any sense,
yet there it was,
waiting to be redeemed.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 23, 2019

Early Afternoon

The wind sings through the fence,
tousles daisies, sends waves
of wheat-colored shimmer
through otherwise green grasses,
lends a gentle respite from the heat

We work on tasks for the mind —
how to see things, how to count,
what to count as real, what counts,
cicadas keep us company –
the welling and receding of their song
is counterpoint to trees’ rustle
and drone to melodies
of distant birds.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 13, 2019

Summer Sounds

It is a time of baby birds,
tiny choruses at intermittent times
from hidden places somewhere in the trees,
parents busy nabbing bugs
from fir and fern,
a flit that finally reveals their home

There is a joy in knowing without seeing
the daily hum of life,
hearing it move between the glimpses,
within the rustle of the wind,
sensing that, the longer we are here
the more of it we’ll understand.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 11, 2019

No Future

Here I am, in this day,
in this project,
with no future to think of, beyond
it may rain this afternoon, beyond
we may get this house built sometime

Not sure of the purpose of future anyway,
with days as full as they are,
clouds coming in across the hills,
new mom turkey walking with her brood,
little nuthatch heard before sighted
flitting among the firs.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 5, 2019

Some Dream

This could be one dream,
could be another
(as I awoke this morning
after saying “would you like a spoon?”)
—a setting, and some people,
and the day to day familiarity
of being — nothing high stakes,
nothing too emotional,
just the exchange of words
and the exchange of gifts

A place I put myself
no more or less
than putting myself here —
in this afternoon
of wind and trees and rest
and taking in what’s given,
taking it, and calling it what’s here.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 31, 2019

Our Days

These are our days,
this is what we’re doing —
there isn’t more
than the work at hand
and the strength that meets it
and the patience of
one task in front of the next,
taking the steps available

These are our days,
this is what we’re doing
as swallows dart around the site
and sun and clouds take turns
and the grass has grown silver tips
that sheen with shifting winds
and the garden is growing
much slower than our eager observation,
slow as our work
which will progress anyway,
in its own time.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 26, 2019

Quiet Mind

With eyes shut
I could be anywhere —
my mind quickly slips me
far from this parking lot —
I shift again and notice
I’m not actually on the cabin porch
nor yet in the northern meadow
with the midday brightness
that now refracts
in many flashing triangles,
shards of memories
and fallen vectored efforts
seeking to settle,
seeking a quiet mind.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 22, 2019

Cleaning out closets

You can fill your head with
boxes, with sheets and blankets
pulled from shelves, and musty things
that skulked around for years

You can fill your mind with tasks —
they hum along in orderly succession,
they stretch to fill the whole allotted space,
they are important, and they give
a sense of usefulness, efficiency —
they have a certain paper satisfaction

But where is the poem in all this?
Where are the gaps, the permeable surfaces
to put down roots,
draw up the crosswise meaning?

It’s here, apparently,
though yesterday I couldn’t find it —
after I stopped, I could see it —
the rhythm, the breath of it,
the why.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 2, 2019